This blog post is for overachievers in recovery. If there were a 12-step group for overachievers, I would attend those meetings. This is definitely something that I struggle with.
This morning I woke up with a painful migraine headache. My greatest dismay was not the pain that I was experiencing in my body (which was terrible), but my resistance to the fact that I just wasn’t going to accomplish what I thought I was going to today.
Born into a family of overachievers, this characteristic is ingrained and often doesn’t serve me well. In my family – and I’m only slightly exaggerating – happiness equals how much you get done.
At times like these where all plans are thrown out the door, it’s helpful to me to remember the key tenet of yoga: being gentle with oneself. I can become so attached to the list of things to do that accomplishing the list becomes more important than enjoying the activity. If I can become aware of this, than I can remind myself to slow down. What I do is not intrinsic to who I am. (Okay, maybe I have to repeat this to myself
several many times to talk myself off the ledge)
Yoga has changed my life in so many ways and has managed to soften my self-judgment. However, I am aware that this is a process for me. This was not something that was brought to my attention and then bam! problem solved.
But that’s why we call it practicing yoga and meditation. We do it again and again, not to get it right but to allow the peace to seep into our lives.
Today, I wish for you and me freedom from self-judgment.